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Wow....so...I haven't updated in a while, huh?
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| Oh Boy |
[23 Oct 2006|08:27pm] |
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So here I am living it up in NYC. What a fucking week and a half it's been. I've done more things here in that amount of time than I did back home in a month. I've made great friends, I've developed a fairly hopeless crush (new place, same old shit), gotten written up for drinking, partied on a boat over the hudson, seen four plays, gotten fucked up in central park on more than one occassion, worked my ass off for classes, and on and on and on. I've acted more responsibly than I ever have. I've partied harder than I ever did at home. I love the city, I'm having the time of my life. It doesn't feel like school, it feels like summer camp with school mixed in. I'm never coming home.
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| Off to New York! |
[12 Oct 2006|06:41am] |
Yes, the time has finally come. I'll be off to school in a few hours. I'm very excited. I'm very anxious.
I never thought I'd be in this position. I always I'd be one of the kids people look at and say "Oh, he had so much potential. But just wasted it." But now here I am. I still have plenty of time to fuck everything up, but I really hope I won't.
I can't wait for all the new people and the new sounds and the new experience. I'm ready to breathe life back into my lungs.
Feel free to call, I won't have much access to computers.
845-341-3910
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| Mad Bored |
[10 Oct 2006|01:00am] |
go to your music player, set it to shuffle/random, and answer the following questions with the title of the FIRST song that you skip to each time. No cheating!
If you reached the top of Mount Everest, you would shout:
Take Off Your Cool- Outkast
The next time you stand up in front of a group of people, you'll say:
Trogdor- Homestar Runner
Your favorite thing to say when drunk is:
So Sexy- Twista
Your message to the world:
Bloodless- Emery
When you think of your best friend you think:
Don't Call Him a Retard- Arab on Radar hahahah
Your deepest secret:
Chicago is So Two Years Ago- Fall Out Boy
Your innermost desire:
Summer Squatter Go Home- Anti-Flag
Your oldest memory makes you think:
Sullen Girl- Fiona Apple
Somewhere in your wedding vows, you'll include:
WP- Matisyahu
On your deathbed, you'll whisper:
True Blue- Bright Eyes
Your friends say behind your back:
When It Comes To Elements, Hydrogen Is Titz- Thunderbirds Are Now!
You say behind your friends' back:
This Boy- Franz Ferdinand
Your opinion of Myspace:
Mojo- Peeping Tom
When you wake up in the morning you think:
Buick Mackane- T. Rex
If you found yourself lost on a desert island, you'd yell:
The Future Freaks Me Out- Motion City Soundtrack
Right now, your feelings are:
This is 50- 50 Cent
What's your excuse for reposting this bulletin?:
Reinventing the Wheel To Run Myself Over- Fall Out Boy
Your life's soundtrack:
Set Phasers To Stun- Taking Back Sunday
The day you fall in love will be the day that:
As Lovers Go- Dashboard Confessional
Your farewell message to the readers of this bulletin:
Sex Changes- The Dresden Dolls
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| WOOOOOOOO |
[07 Oct 2006|03:19pm] |
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No more Beer Barn! Almost no more Pennsylvania! Come on over tonight if you're still around. I'm having a going away shindig.
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[01 Oct 2006|12:52am] |
Late, idle nights lead to evil thoughts.
I want to get lost in someone and not care about anything else.
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| Time to say things |
[28 Sep 2006|01:00am] |
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Cursive- The Lament of Pretty Baby |
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I've been stuck here in Pennsylvania for much longer than most kids my age because of AMDA starting so late. I'm still here for another 2 weeks! I guess I've been making the most of it though- keeping busy at the beer barn and spending time with whatever sassy kids still remain. I've definitely been going a little stir crazy though. I am SO done with this place. Beyond it.
I've felt something stirring inside of me lately, something roaring an churning and beating and begging to get out. I want it to, and I'm trying, but there's so much in there buried so deep.
Sometimes I don't feel completely genuine around people. I'm always being funny and silly and crazy around people close to me, and doing everything I can to try and help them and make them feel good. But then when I'm alone, I'm much more serious and even sad. I'm not saying either one isn't really me, but is one me more than the other? Why such a dramatic difference? Do I need to surround myself with people to ever really be in a good mood?
Love life is so completely nonexistant. My feelings on that subject is a whole different rant entirely.
Overall I'd say I'm fairly happy with how things seem to be going in my life, and how I'm progressing. It seems like I'm finally starting to achieve the small goals I've set up for myself, but it's a long process because I'm very slow to change.
I think the most important thing in life is to always make sure you feel fulfilled creatively, spiritually, financially, and emotionally, and if you're not, try to find out why, and fix it.
I'm probably going to get a new livejournal and screen name soon. They're both too high schooly.
Look out New York, I'm coming for ya, and you can be damn sure that you'll never be the same again.
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| My horoscope today |
[18 Jul 2006|03:27pm] |
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Bright Eyes- Easy, Lucky, Free |
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Venus is your key planet and you are more receptive to love as she moves through sensitive Cancer. However it's critical to own up to any fears that you have about getting what you really want, for they can be deterrents to the very love you seek. Talking about the things that can hurt you may be enough to overcome your fright.
It's one of the most frighteningly accurate ones I've ever gotten. It definitely describes the things that have gone on in my mind lately. I know it's stupid to believe in astrology, but I really kind of do.
It's been a very long time since I've updated this thing. I'm going to post a massive picture update soon. The pictures will describe more than anything else what my life has been lately.
The short version of what's going on with me can be described in three words: work, vacations, friends.
Also, I was accepted to the American Musical and Dramatic Academy, and I received a scholarship for $8,000 a year based on my audition. It's one of the most exciting things that has ever happened to me. I'm going to be living in the city! I can't wait.
That's all for now.
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[06 Jun 2006|08:32pm] |
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I think I've lost weight. That's kind of scary. California on monday. Graduation?
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| Rhetoric(al) |
[30 May 2006|09:48pm] |
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When will I know who I am? When will I know what I want? Am I ever going to get out of here? How?
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| What the hell... |
[21 May 2006|09:03am] |
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How can it be 9 am on Sunday? The last thing I remember is that it was 7 pm on saturday and I was going to take a nap. I feel like Rip van Winkle.
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| Birthday Boy |
[16 May 2006|09:45pm] |
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I'm all grown up now. Three cheers for me!
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| First Day at the Beer Barn |
[09 May 2006|10:38pm] |
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Stacked lots and lots of 30 packs. Saw lots of alchoholic rednecks. Got a two dollar tip for carrying a lady's hard iced tea out to her car for her. All in all not a bad job. If I keep stacking all these heavy beer cases I'm gonna be fucking ripped by the end of the summer. Greek god style.
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| What a life... |
[08 May 2006|11:45pm] |
So as I said in my last entry, almost two weeks ago my Poppi died. I went to his funeral services that thursday and friday. It was very hard for me. It was even harder for my mother and my Nonni though. Everytime they looked at him they burst into tears. My Nonni was in hysterics almost the entire time. My Poppi and her were married for 61 years. They knew eachother even longer than that. Almost their entire lives. At the wake there was this wonderful picture of them when they were 17 years old. My Nonni was in a white dress and my Poppi was in his navy uniform and they both looked so young and happy and beautiful. This whole experience has made death something incredibly real for me. Before this I had never lost anyone close to me, death was something completely intangible, like another galaxy. But now I know what it's like and I can't bear the thought that I will go through this so many more times in my life. I'm just happy that he's at peace now. He was sick for so so long, and the last time I saw him he looked happy.
I went to a giant peace march in new york that saturday. It mas amazing. There were 300,000 people in it. I felt great. Like I was actually accomplishing something. I also got to hang with my Maggie and Becca and all the other lovely Beacon kids. Good times.
I may have a job now at the Beer Barn working for Kelsey's dad. We'll see.
Phil's cast party for the music man kids on saturday was amazing. I absolutely adore those kids. It was so much fun.
Upcoming life events:
18th birthday in one week.
Prom that friday (still need a date).
AMDA audition that saturday. God damn I hope I get in.
Hopefully things will slow down a bit after that.
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[26 Apr 2006|11:40pm] |
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My Poppi died today.
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[08 Apr 2006|10:48pm] |
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I've been so many different places the past few days I don't even know where my home is anymore. haha and now I'm going to Errol's. No rest for the wicked. No home for them either I guess.
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